...and it's back to work

Well, I was listening to Dashboard Confessional today, which means I am in a very introspective mood :) And I have to go back to work tomorrow, which makes the whole mood thing even worse. But, I can honestly say I feel more like myself right now than I have in a looong time. It's a good feeling. You know how you can get so far out of your element that you almost feel like it's not your life anymore? Maybe I'm just crazy! :) Anyway, I spent a couple hours at the gym this morning, which has been an almost daily routine lately. Between that and softball, getting back to things I have been doing my whole life is kind of refreshing (and exactly why I want my old schedule back!)
Makes me think back too-- like I wonder what ever happened to personal trainer Todd? And, well, working with him so much is what led to my senior year AP calculus teacher calling me a bitch (I'm not kidding! she now lives next to Yvonne's family. how odd.) It also indirectly led to my infamous "Muscles" nickname in high school (altered since by Michael), although I would bet most people don't remember where it really came from-- tennis class or Josh or any of that. Beyond that, it taught me discipline, which impacted my MWC softball career (which I consider one of my life's best experiences) and also still impacts just about everything I do now...

Ahhh memories... Do you ever think back about how much you've changed in the last few years? Just coming out of high school I was this youth group freak with big dreams of my perfect life after I majored in elementary education at Grove City. Now, 6 years or so later, I'm the world's biggest sinner (hehehe), currently climbing the corporate ladder and living on my own in Virginia Beach! I try not to have any regrets in my life, and I do truly believe you learn something valuable from every choice and mistake you make. For instance, if I had never dated Joel, I would probably never have felt so boxed in and ended up transferring, and there's no way in hell I'd be where I am now. Or, if I hadn't gone to Grove City at all, I never would have met the girls who are now despite distance still some of my best friends in the whole world (shout out to you-- you know who you are!) :) It's just odd to think that you can end up being a completely different person than you thought you'd be. And I'm still learning now about who I am and even how other people see me. My team at work told me a few weeks ago that they couldn't imagine me clubbing (what?!) and my new team recently told me they see me as the ultra-organized girl who always pays her bills on the first of the month (ha!) and sits around plotting how next to get ahead (guess after all these years my competitiveness won out.)

So, I don't really know where I'm going with this, except that I'm really happy with my life right now, and I am glad for all the experiences in my life that have gotten me here. And it's so nice lately to really feel like where I am is meant to be and to look forward to whatever comes next, whatever it is. I'm ready for a new challenge too, so I'm kind of excited to see what life throws at me! And, if any of you out there have had any part in making my life what it has been so far, thanks!!! And if you're reading this and that's you, post a comment and say hello. I know you are all profile spies anyway so fess up :) Anyway, that's it for me for now... Off to bed and then off to work tomorrow. G'night!