weekend recap
some thoughts and some randomness... packing has worn me out so this is the best you get til I get back :)
This was such an odd week. For starters, I ran around like a chicken with my head cut off, since I have daily work and calls for a nationwide process review, I was in charge of a department event, I was tasked with writing a pretty significant analysis, and oh yeah, I still had a team to run. But, honestly, I LOVE being busy. always have and, sadly, probably always will. I'm never quite sure what to do with free time. So that part of this week didn't bother me at all. The part that made it hell was that while also having all of those things to do, I had to run around OUTSIDE of work FOR work, I have two people on my team that consistently drive me up a wall, one of my fellow supervisors makes me want to plead with HR to repeal the workplace violence rules, I still have a boss, and there's always so much corporate BS going on that it's just not even funny anymore. so, this week was definitely a struggle to stay sane.
k getting deep for a sec. On top of that, I think I am too forgiving. well, let me rephrase that-- I think I am too non-confrontational. It's not that I easily forgive.... actually, the opposite. I tend to think very highly of everyone unless I have a reason not to. I trust people, BUT, once that trust is broken for any reason, it's almost impossible to get back. I guess that's also true of my perception of someone's character. Now, I have mastered all the difficult conversation stuff-- I think I have a pretty good idea of all the personalities I supervise, and I know when to let something go and when to address it. and if it needs to be addressed, I have NO problem at all doing that. but when it comes to relationships other than the people that report to me (work or otherwise) I tend to let a LOT go on the surface when things make me either mad or hurt. and I wonder if I should. I probably take more shit than I should. But at the same time, it all registers, I just don't always do something about it on the outside. But I may trust someone less or value a relationship less, and I'm not sure which is more damaging. just a thought. I haven't decided yet if this is a character flaw or just my personality. weigh in if you have a thought.
so anyway, let me just say that packing is 20 times harder when your clothes are not organized!!!!!!!!!! yes that's right, my closet is STILL broken, and my once neat piles of clothes are no longer quite so neat (hard to stay organized after 2 weeks of early morning clothes finding!) but, the apartment people assured me (by letter no less) that it will be fixed this week. Since I will be in Dallas, though, I'll be happy as long as it's fixed when I get back. Also, packing is also hard when you really have no idea what to expect. I'm planning for the 90 degree weather that weather.com is predicting for Dallas and just hoping it's like that all day and all night.
And, since I haven't been to Dallas since high school, I'm hoping it's as fun as I remember, even though back then we had more fun with friends in the hotel than actually out and about in the city. I'm also hoping this trip is some fun and not just all work, although from the last conference call, it seems like it will be a fun bunch. I can't wait to meet "Helga" from region 2. (who does that to their kid?!) But either way, it's a trip away on company money, and I LOVE to travel and take a break from the daily grind in general, so I'm sure it'll be great. I just feel like I'm forgetting everything, because the extra night's stay (no sense in driving back here tomorrow night when Busch Gardens and the airport with my 5:35am flight are only 15 minutes apart... and an hour from my apartment) is really throwing me off! we'll see... Microtel gets their second and only other chance tomorrow night...
anyway, I'm off 'til Friday-- everyone have a great week!!! and if you get bored, call me on my cell and keep me entertained in my hotel :) later all!